(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 5: No Where To Turn

“Shit”, I said jumping off the bed, picking my clothes up off the chair and headed straight for the door. Trey stood in front of the door blocking it.

Trey said trying to stop me, “Why are you leaving?”

Trying to shove him out the way I said, “Trey move!”

“Where are you going?”

Finally, I got Trey out of my way; I put my cloths down attempting to put one piece on at a time, but before I could get anything on, Trey came behind me and grabbed the clothing I had in my hand and threw them on the floor. When I tried to turn around, he wrapped his hands around my waist, planting kisses from my left shoulder to the right side of my neck then stopped. For a moment I awaited his next move. Getting impatient I turned around making full eye contact with Trey. As are eyes met our lips met seconds later. I fell in love all over again. I stepped back uncertain whether I should continue. As I stepped back he stepped forward backing me against the wall. With nowhere to run Trey kissed me gently pressed against my body. I wanted to pull away, but the warmth from his body drew me in. He picked me up carried me over to the bed, laid me down as he made his way downtown. I have been craving this moment. He always does everything right. He knows exactly what to do to drive me crazy. Trey is definitely the best lover I have ever had. 

“What do you want from me”, I said Moaning

He Whispers looking in my eyes, “I Love You”

“Why do you like hurting me?”

I got really emotional throughout our entire time of making love. I couldn’t believe I was so emotional. After a while Trey stopped answering my emotional driven questions. He just gave me what he knew I wanted. I began crying for more begging him to go deeper. I wanted so bad to free my mind and enjoy every bit of this moment but, in the back of my mind I was still hurt, I needed answers. Trey went on his knees grabbing me and slowly entered. I wrapped my legs around his waist closing my eyes bending my head back and moaning. I made eye contact with Trey once more with tears rolling down my face. I kissed Trey then felt a shocking palm run through my body. We stared at one another satisfied. 

The next morning I found myself to be satisfied and relaxed, to be sleeping next to the man I was afraid to love. I lied their watching him sleep. He was perfection, maybe it’s just me but he looks like an angel when he sleeps. I honestly couldn't believe I was doing this again. Instead of trying to get over him, I was falling deeper. I had to get out of that hotel room before he woke up and we both exchanged words that we wouldn't be able to take back. I wanted to kiss him badly, but I had to restrain. I quietly got out of the bed tip toeing, picking up my cloths and putting them on. I then made a quick exit. I leaned back on the door crying. I got myself together wiped my eyes and left the location.

The next thing I knew, I was knocking on Victoria’s door like a lost puppy. I needed to talk to someone immediately I was dying inside. 

“Who is it?”, a voice asked behind the door.

“Christina”, I replied

Victoria opened the door with a big smile. When she saw the sadness in my face her mood changed.

“Are you okay?”, she asked; pulling me inside the house, closing the door behind me.

I nodded my head “no” without a reply. 

“What happened? Is it work? Cause you already know…”

“No it has nothing to do with that”

“Oh Okay…Then what is it?”

“Its Trey”

“What about Trey?” Victoria said with attitude.

“Yesterday he called in the office asking for me personally under another name”

“Really?” laughing then continued, “What’s wrong with that?”

"Wait let me finish. He then asked for me to meet him at a hotel. You know how I feel about the whole hotel thing, but I just said whatever because I wanted to get Trey off my mind. So when I got to the hotel he told me to come into the bedroom and get comfortable. At that moment; I was going to leave, but I didn’t because I wanted to forget Trey. So I went into the room and took off my cloths and everything."

Victoria asked, “Wait, this is before you knew it was Trey?”

“Yes”

“freak” Victoria laughed.

I Laughed, “Let me continue, I posed on the bed waiting for him, to get out of the bathroom. When he stepped out I almost died. I was so embarrassed, I jumped off the bed grabbed my cloths and tried to leave but he jumped in front of the door. We argued for a few seconds then the rest is history”

"Really?", Victoria’s facial expression changed, “Wait I’m not surprised, both of you are still in love with each other”.

“I woke up this morning and just wanted to stay in his arms”

“Why did you leave?”

“I can’t be with him, he doesn’t accept my career and he doesn’t trust me” 

“You could work toward fixing that part of your relationship instead of running away”. 

My phone then began to ring. The screen read My Baby. I showed the phone to Victoria and she said, "Talk to him" There was a silence in the room as the phone rang again, "Answer it". 

I picked up the phone, “Hello”

“I wake up and you’re gone. Wassup with that?” 

“I needed air”

“Christina what’s the problem?”

“There is no problem” 

“Well, I’m leaving town in two days and I want to see you again before I leave”

Why is it that this man has to always make it hard for me to say no to him? I don’t want him to leave. I just want to be with him.

To Be Continued...

(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 3: Being Honest With Myself

When I saw Victoria I just looked at her with a blank stare the put my head down. She walked over to me placing her hand on my back, “What’s wrong hun?”
I stood there with my head down for a few seconds then said, “Nothing”.
“I don’t think running to the bathroom when you see your ex is nothing”
I had nothing to say.
“This is about him right?”
“I love my Milkshake”
“What?”
“Nothing, I need to talk to him”, I said in guilt.
“He is in the other room”
“Do you think I’m pathetic?”
“What? No. If you want him back you need to let him know that”

I stood up straight fixing myself up in the mirror, “your right”. Victoria and I made our way out the bathroom and back to our table with the girls. I noticed two big bottles of Ciroc on the table, one of which Briana was pouring in a cup of ice.
“Damn girl you trying to someone drunk?”, Victoria said taking the bottle from her and pouring some in a cup laughing.
“Girl I didn’t buy these bottles, Trey sent it over here with a note saying ‘To My Milkshake’. He thinks I’m his milkshake”, Briana said smiling.
“What?”, Victoria said confused.
Robin said laughing, “Exactly V” Then looked at Briana, “who the hell told you he sent it over here for you?”
“I’m damn sure he didn’t send it for you besides me and Trey had a connection the last time we spoke”, Briana said dreamy.
Victoria began laughing hysterically while looking at me. Whenever Victoria laughs like this it means she find out something before everyone else could figure it out, and it really did make whoever was speaking feel foolish.
Debby asked, “Why are you laughing like that?”
“Because Briana always thinks men want her”
“If it wasn’t for me then who could it be for” Briana asked.
I enjoyed listening to Briana go on and on about how Trey called her his milkshake. Sometimes I think this girl just talks to get attention.
“I don’t think it matters who it’s for just enjoy the drinks” I said trying to end the argument.
“Oh course you would say that” Robin said smiling
“Excuse me? What does that mean?”
“Don’t worry about it” Robin said rolling her eyes.
If only she knew that it was me the bottles were sent for she would die. As much as I wanted to see her reaction when she found out it was me. I couldn’t give her the satisfaction.
“Do you always have to be a bitch” I was so irritated.
“Yeah, it’s in my DNA” Robin said
“Shut up” Victoria responded

Robin had nothing to say to Victoria. It was amazing to see how Robin would keep her mouth shut if Victoria told her too, but it wasn’t only her all the girls were afraid of her. I never understood why because she’s the sweatiest person. I felt a vibration from my phone when I looked to see who was calling I noticed it was only a text. Of course I knew who it was but I was afraid to read the message, why? I have no idea. The message read “You look beautiful tonight”. I couldn’t hold back my smile. I put my head up and looked in Trey’s direction to see him smiling back at me. Trey typed something in his phone then looked back at me. Just then a message came to my phone “I miss your smile”. I didn’t respond then I got another message saying “you’re not going to respond?”. So I decided to respond saying “I need to talk to you”. I wasn’t sure if that was a good idea but at this point I don’t care what’s wrong or right. Seconds later I got a response saying “Same here”. At that moment I wanted to leave the club. I didn’t care to be there. I just needed to be with Trey.
What I’m going to say next is completely honest. I have no idea what happen from the point when I got the text message to when Trey came knocking at my door. I opened the door not knowing what to expect. Trey and I stood there looking at one another for a few seconds before letting himself in the house closing the door behind him.

To Be Continued…

(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 1 : Seeing Trey Hurts

I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go out tonight especially with all the hype about Trey being in town. I knew inside of me, seeing him would definitely make my day, but I didn’t know if he would feel the same after our last encounter.

Two weeks ago Trey and I attended an event for American Veterans. I had no idea Trey was going to attend this event, when I walked in and heard Trey’s name my heart dropped. I was torn. Considering this had been the first time Trey and I had seen one another since our break up, I didn’t make it my priority to speak with him, but it was hard not to. They were honoring Trey for his “Your Side of the Bed” music video, which brought awareness to the way military families feel and the sacrifices they have to make. I was so proud of him because I knew how hard he has worked to be where he is. The thing that hurt was the fact that I couldn’t tell him how I really felt.

At one point I was walking and Diana stopped me and said, “love your outfit”, and of course Trey was standing next to her staring while sipping o his wine. I assumed he was waiting for me to acknowledge his presence. I was surprised that Diana had spoken to me since we haven’t seen each other in over a year. I was wearing a long red dress that fit tight and fell a little pass my knee and long in the back. The straps wrapped around my neck with a plunging cut in both the front and back.
“Thank you”, I said
“Is it Alexander McQueen? Seen something like that not too long ago” She said sarcastically.
“Really?” I smiled as I continued to speak, “No, babe it’s a Christina Renee original”, making a three sixty in order for her to see the full dress.
“Nice”

The compliments I got were the highlight of my night but it was weird that Trey appears everywhere I was. At the time I didn’t know if it was intentional or just me but I thought his efforts to get my attention were cute. Briana and I decided to get another drink from the bar. Briana and I work together but we were also friends.
Briana had long red hair with a body to die for. She was wearing a short halter top tight fitted black dress. Briana is definitely more outspoken than I am. When I noticed that Trey was making his way towards the bar I quickly nudged Briana. Trey stood right next to me. I could feel his eyes piercing against my skin. I turned to the bar with hopes that he would walk away. Briana then shoved me out the way holding her hand out to shake Trey’s and said, “Hi I’m Briana”. Trey held his hand out to meet hers.
“Nice to meet you”, Trey Replied then looking at me, “And you are?”
Trey held out his hand for me to shake it. I held my hand out to meet his and replied, “Christina Renee”.
“Nice to meet you Christina Renee”, Trey said with a sarcastic smile. The few seconds we made eye contact went from innocent to sexual. I had to immediately break contact. It seemed as if we were talking to one another for the first time again. I would have said something back but because Briana had no knowledge of our past I decided to play along.
Briana interjected, “So I see you’re the man of the hour, Congratulations”
Trey replied, “Thank you, but I’m just glad I could be the one to bring awareness to the situation”.
“I understand, we both are daughters of military men so we know what it’s like”

I tried to keep myself out of the conversation as much as possible. So I would just nod my head and agree with everything that was being said. I was at this prestigious event I was originally not supposed to be at but was invited at the last minute because of my relationship with the sponsors. Then to find out that my ex is the one being honored at this event. It was a lot to take in at once.
When the night was over Briana and I said good night to one another and went our separate ways. As I was waiting for my car Trey and his assistant stood next to me.
“Did you enjoy yourself?” said Trey’s assistant sarcastically.
“Yes, it was amazing”, I said with a smile
I wasn’t sure if Diana didn’t like me because of what happened but I did not appreciate the sarcasm she kept giving me. She was acting as if he was her man and not her boss. 
“That’s great”, as her car pulled up she said, “Have a good night”, jumped into the car and drove off.
After she left Trey was still waiting for his car. I was a little uncomfortable and confused. I looked in the opposite direction to make the situation less awkward.
“Is that your way of ignoring me”, Trey said smiling.
I turned to him confused, “How can I ignore someone who isn’t talking to me?” I replied.         
Both of our cars pulled up at the same time. I was freaked out how things were working out. It all seemed planned in some strange way.
“Were you working tonight?”
“Excuse me, is that really the first thing you can say to me?”
I began walking to my car when Trey grabbed my hand, “Is this how you want to end the night?”
“Do you have a better idea?” I said with an attitude.
“Many”
“Well you keep those ideas for someone who wants to hear them”, I tugged my hand from his grip, got into my car, and drove off. I didn’t intend to be so mean, it just can out. It upset me that he would ask me about work knowing our situation. Sometimes living this type of life can really affect your personal life. Ever since that night I have been getting calls and emails from Trey but I haven’t answered.

TO BE CONTINUED...

P.S All Stories are Fictional!