Wednesday, July 18, 2012

(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 3: Being Honest With Myself


When I saw Victoria I just looked at her with a blank stare the put my head down. She walked over to me placing her hand on my back, “What’s wrong hun?”
I stood there with my head down for a few seconds then said, “Nothing”.
“I don’t think running to the bathroom when you see your ex is nothing”
I had nothing to say.
“This is about him right?”
“I love my Milkshake”
“What?”
“Nothing, I need to talk to him”, I said in guilt.
“He is in the other room”
“Do you think I’m pathetic?”
“What? No. If you want him back you need to let him know that”

I stood up straight fixing myself up in the mirror, “your right”. Victoria and I made our way out the bathroom and back to our table with the girls. I noticed two big bottles of Ciroc on the table, one of which Briana was pouring in a cup of ice.
“Damn girl you trying to someone drunk?”, Victoria said taking the bottle from her and pouring some in a cup laughing.
“Girl I didn’t buy these bottles, Trey sent it over here with a note saying ‘To My Milkshake’. He thinks I’m his milkshake”, Briana said smiling.
“What?”, Victoria said confused.
Robin said laughing, “Exactly V” Then looked at Briana, “who the hell told you he sent it over here for you?”
“I’m damn sure he didn’t send it for you besides me and Trey had a connection the last time we spoke”, Briana said dreamy.
Victoria began laughing hysterically while looking at me. Whenever Victoria laughs like this it means she find out something before everyone else could figure it out, and it really did make whoever was speaking feel foolish.
Debby asked, “Why are you laughing like that?”
“Because Briana always thinks men want her”
“If it wasn’t for me then who could it be for” Briana asked.
I enjoyed listening to Briana go on and on about how Trey called her his milkshake. Sometimes I think this girl just talks to get attention.
“I don’t think it matters who it’s for just enjoy the drinks” I said trying to end the argument.
“Oh course you would say that” Robin said smiling
“Excuse me? What does that mean?”
“Don’t worry about it” Robin said rolling her eyes.
If only she knew that it was me the bottles were sent for she would die. As much as I wanted to see her reaction when she found out it was me. I couldn’t give her the satisfaction.
“Do you always have to be a bitch” I was so irritated.
“Yeah, it’s in my DNA” Robin said
“Shut up” Victoria responded

Robin had nothing to say to Victoria. It was amazing to see how Robin would keep her mouth shut if Victoria told her too, but it wasn’t only her all the girls were afraid of her. I never understood why because she’s the sweatiest person. I felt a vibration from my phone when I looked to see who was calling I noticed it was only a text. Of course I knew who it was but I was afraid to read the message, why? I have no idea. The message read “You look beautiful tonight”. I couldn’t hold back my smile. I put my head up and looked in Trey’s direction to see him smiling back at me. Trey typed something in his phone then looked back at me. Just then a message came to my phone “I miss your smile”. I didn’t respond then I got another message saying “you’re not going to respond?”. So I decided to respond saying “I need to talk to you”. I wasn’t sure if that was a good idea but at this point I don’t care what’s wrong or right. Seconds later I got a response saying “Same here”. At that moment I wanted to leave the club. I didn’t care to be there. I just needed to be with Trey.
What I’m going to say next is completely honest. I have no idea what happen from the point when I got the text message to when Trey came knocking at my door. I opened the door not knowing what to expect. Trey and I stood there looking at one another for a few seconds before letting himself in the house closing the door behind him.

To Be Continued…

Monday, July 16, 2012

(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 2: My Life Is Now Upsidedown

(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 2: My Life Is Now Upsidedown
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Christina
 As I sat on my couch with a glass of wine in hand, my phone rings taking from the memories of that night. When I looked at the phone, it read Gabby. I had no interest to hear what she had to say but as I sat there watching the phone ring and finally picked it up.

“Hello”, I said annoyed

“You coming tonight?”, she said happy with the music playing loudly in the background.

“No”, I said upset

“Why not…You know what, hold that thought, and open the door I’m outside”

“What? Why?”
“Just open the door”  
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      
When I opened the door Gabby was standing there with Briana, Victoria, Robin, and Debby. I didn’t know why they were all determined to get me to go out the house.
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Gabby

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Briana

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Victoria

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Robin

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Debby
 “Get dressed”, Briana said forcefully.
 “I don’t want to go” I replied.

“Why not?” Victoria whined.

“I just don’t feel like it”, I said

“Since when do you not feel like partying?” Laughed Robin

“Tonight”

“You have to” Debby said.

“Why do you insist I go?” I said wondering.

“Business baby girl” Debby answered.

“You do know there isn’t going to be anyone there worth your time, Right?” I replied.

“You don’t know that, maybe someone Trey is with…” Debby said.

“Oh no you know the rules you don’t settle for anybody. If it’s not the best then leave it where it stands” Robin preached.

“She’s right, don’t let physical attraction cloud your mind to the purpose of our job” Gabby added.

Victoria interjected, “I don’t know what you’re talking about but, I want to go out to have fun for a change, no work involved and to be honest Christina you need to have fun too. You work more than all of us. I don’t even know if you have a personal life anymore”.

Victoria knew the most about me out of the four of them. She knew about me and Trey and kept it to herself, so I would have to agree with her. Ever since Trey and I broke it off I’ve been working longer and harder to avoid thinking about him but nothing or no one seemed to fill the void. I was miserable and Victoria knew it.

“Okay fine I’ll go, now leave me along”. I said going into my room.

When we get to the club there was a line wrapped around the club. As we walked to the front we were let straight in. Our job did have some perks. One of course was we never have to wait in a line to get into any club, restaurant, etc and we took full advantage of it too. Gabby had gotten us a table, as soon we walked in we made our way to the table. The club was already packed and they were still letting people in. I was glad Gabby had gotten us a table ahead of time. Trey of course wasn’t there yet. My phone began ringing and it had a smiley face.

Robin picked up my phone and said, “Smiley face, really? Is this work?”

I grabbed the phone out of her hand, “Mind your business”

“Someone’s getting busy with work”, Robin joked

Victoria defended Christine, “you’re the last one who should be talking about getting bus with work. That’s your hobby”.

All the girls started laughing having Robin looking upset.

“It was just a joke, calm down”, Victoria laughed.

I then began getting text messages, “Hey baby wassup” “I’m in town tonight I want to see you” “I miss you”. As I read the messages I was confused. He broke it off with me and now he’s telling me he misses me. I slipped my phone to Victoria under the table so she could read the messages. After reading the messages she looked up slipped me the phone and said, “Speaking of the devil”. I turned around to see Trey walking in with his entourage. The moment everyone saw Trey camera flashes wet of like crazy and female’s dresses got shorter.

When Trey and I were in a relationship we didn’t make public appearances together. Whenever we went out it was more of a calm or private place. I didn’t care for the world to know about us. The people we truly love and care about knew we were together and that was enough for me. 

I watched Trey walk from the door all the way to his booth wishing he was still mine. In those few moments I thought about all the wonderful times Trey and I have had in the past. I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. The girls looked around in confusion.

“What wrong with her?” said Briana. The girls shrugged their shoulders.

“She’s so dramatic”, Robin said taking a sip of her drink.

“I’m going to go see what’s wrong”, said Debby.

“No, I’ll go”, said Victoria as she quickly made her way into the bathroom. Victoria came into the bathroom to see me leaning against the wall.


To Be Continued…

Sunday, July 15, 2012

(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 1 : Seeing Trey Hurts




I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go out tonight especially with all the hype about Trey being in town. I knew inside of me, seeing him would definitely make my day, but I didn’t know if he would feel the same after our last encounter.

Two weeks ago Trey and I attended an event for American Veterans. I had no idea Trey was going to attend this event, when I walked in and heard Trey’s name my heart dropped. I was torn. Considering this had been the first time Trey and I had seen one another since our break up, I didn’t make it my priority to speak with him, but it was hard not to. They were honoring Trey for his “Your Side of the Bed” music video, which brought awareness to the way military families feel and the sacrifices they have to make. I was so proud of him because I knew how hard he has worked to be where he is. The thing that hurt was the fact that I couldn’t tell him how I really felt.

At one point I was walking and Diana stopped me and said, “love your outfit”, and of course Trey was standing next to her staring while sipping o his wine. I assumed he was waiting for me to acknowledge his presence. I was surprised that Diana had spoken to me since we haven’t seen each other in over a year. I was wearing a long red dress that fit tight and fell a little pass my knee and long in the back. The straps wrapped around my neck with a plunging cut in both the front and back.
“Thank you”, I said
“Is it Alexander McQueen? Seen something like that not too long ago” She said sarcastically.
“Really?” I smiled as I continued to speak, “No, babe it’s a Christina Renee original”, making a three sixty in order for her to see the full dress.
“Nice”

The compliments I got were the highlight of my night but it was weird that Trey appears everywhere I was. At the time I didn’t know if it was intentional or just me but I thought his efforts to get my attention were cute. Briana and I decided to get another drink from the bar. Briana and I work together but we were also friends.
Briana had long red hair with a body to die for. She was wearing a short halter top tight fitted black dress. Briana is definitely more outspoken than I am. When I noticed that Trey was making his way towards the bar I quickly nudged Briana. Trey stood right next to me. I could feel his eyes piercing against my skin. I turned to the bar with hopes that he would walk away. Briana then shoved me out the way holding her hand out to shake Trey’s and said, “Hi I’m Briana”. Trey held his hand out to meet hers.
“Nice to meet you”, Trey Replied then looking at me, “And you are?”
Trey held out his hand for me to shake it. I held my hand out to meet his and replied, “Christina Renee”.
“Nice to meet you Christina Renee”, Trey said with a sarcastic smile. The few seconds we made eye contact went from innocent to sexual. I had to immediately break contact. It seemed as if we were talking to one another for the first time again. I would have said something back but because Briana had no knowledge of our past I decided to play along.
Briana interjected, “So I see you’re the man of the hour, Congratulations”
Trey replied, “Thank you, but I’m just glad I could be the one to bring awareness to the situation”.
“I understand, we both are daughters of military men so we know what it’s like”

I tried to keep myself out of the conversation as much as possible. So I would just nod my head and agree with everything that was being said. I was at this prestigious event I was originally not supposed to be at but was invited at the last minute because of my relationship with the sponsors. Then to find out that my ex is the one being honored at this event. It was a lot to take in at once.
When the night was over Briana and I said good night to one another and went our separate ways. As I was waiting for my car Trey and his assistant stood next to me.
“Did you enjoy yourself?” said Trey’s assistant sarcastically.
“Yes, it was amazing”, I said with a smile
I wasn’t sure if Diana didn’t like me because of what happened but I did not appreciate the sarcasm she kept giving me. She was acting as if he was her man and not her boss. 
“That’s great”, as her car pulled up she said, “Have a good night”, jumped into the car and drove off.
After she left Trey was still waiting for his car. I was a little uncomfortable and confused. I looked in the opposite direction to make the situation less awkward.
“Is that your way of ignoring me”, Trey said smiling.
I turned to him confused, “How can I ignore someone who isn’t talking to me?” I replied.         
Both of our cars pulled up at the same time. I was freaked out how things were working out. It all seemed planned in some strange way.
“Were you working tonight?”
“Excuse me, is that really the first thing you can say to me?”
I began walking to my car when Trey grabbed my hand, “Is this how you want to end the night?”
“Do you have a better idea?” I said with an attitude.
“Many”
“Well you keep those ideas for someone who wants to hear them”, I tugged my hand from his grip, got into my car, and drove off. I didn’t intend to be so mean, it just can out. It upset me that he would ask me about work knowing our situation. Sometimes living this type of life can really affect your personal life. Ever since that night I have been getting calls and emails from Trey but I haven’t answered.

TO BE CONTINUED...

P.S All Stories are Fictional!